parma ham disappointment

there is a lot of blog entries these days because i simply have the time,

lunch at lenas made me feel very very conned by dearie. her parma ham pizza shots were so enticing, but when i tried it today it is kinda disappointing. nevertheless, here are the shots. yes, we were having hoegaarden at 12 noon. i don’t know why, we just did.

ever since my sister is married, each chinese new year is spent without her. and i don’t know when it started but her family began to travel overseas for the chinese new year. this year, she went indonesia – bandung and is really happy with the experience. according to her, an excellent place to relax and refresh. she is back today and we went to pick her up. look at those loots she brought back, super kampong loots.

my maid is super ai mei.

the last picture may seem random but i have to bring it up. i went over my sis’s place to water her plants and today, this plant grew like 2-5 cm?! can a plant grow so fast with alkaline water?! doubtful, very very doubtful. :O

with love,

wonders of icloud;

i’m feeling very very satisfied that i finally manage to sort and organize my contacts. it was horrendously messy and never can i find the time to organize them one by one. this two days of forced leave contributes greatly in regaining my sanity. icloud makes organization and syncing simple,

there is this psychological saying: when one attempts to organize and control everything around, it probably means one’s world is spinning out of control within. well, truth be told who can control one’s thoughts, emotions and body reaction?

with love,

my mom is like dowager;

i brought bee² to meet my mom this chinese new year. i really do not want to wait a year, bring him home only to have my mom pre-judge him based on my actions for the past 12 months. i thought it’ll be really awkward because the dinner includes not only my family (without my sister and bil) but also my uncle and cousins. but surprise surprise, bee² made himself so comfortable throughout the meeting, there was not a moment of uneasiness. maturity matters huh?

anyway, i finally manage to check two of my 2012 to-do list today.

1. getting an insurance scheme for my mom and myself. this has been put on hold for ages, i would not know when i will be available again so it is a must for me to meet robin now. i cannot stress more on how important insurance is to everybody.

ever since the incident with my father, insurance has proven its point. just imagine the pressure on my family and i when my father was in the hospital. while we are worried about the condition my father and his well-being as he was warded in b class/icu, we worry about the hospitalisation expenses on all his examinations, check ups, doctor appointments and etc. should my father require an expensive and mandatory surgery how are we going to finance that procedure(s)? i’m not saying you should get 100% coverage (i.e. hospitalisation, critical illnesses, disabilities and death), but at least the basic i.e. hospitalisation so that *touch wood* you never have to worry about not having the money to do whatever necessary to keep you alive.

2. servicing my camera (i.e. samsung st550). it is kinda irritating how official websites are unable to provide accurate information. i visited the service centre at plaza sing and well, the servicing for devices other than samsung mobile is located at 20 toh guan road #01 – 01 CJ GLS building, singapore 608839. there is no guard there, just walk-in.

i have two issues with my camera; the screen resolution is noisy and there is a speckle of dust that is too visible to be ignored when i zoom in for a shot. fixing the former will cost me S$220 and the latter, S$60. the accumulated payable is rounded off the nearest hundreds S$300, i figured it will be more worthwhile to get a new and better camera. the repair cost is one reason, and the other attributes are the night shots are not up to standard, the shots are slow and the stabilizer is not good enough.

after much research, together with bee², i have decided to get Canon S100. The ratings are good and it is compact and light enough to be brought around – an excellent tool to help achieve one of my 2012 resolutions. so i’m gonna save up and buy this new toy.

some of the side notes, some photos for today. ending off with love,

that two soft toys are going make bee² car their home

i have to show you my new hair color for cny & my hair is finally shouldered!

this blog is four years old in the year of 2012;

credits to www.chinahighlights.com

2011 was an eventful year for me;

1. leaving challenger was a decision i have never regretted. there was no grounds for learning, nor was there any space for growth. later i heard cits (challenger it services) was asked to close as it was not making profits. with a leader like this, it was hard to grow the company even if we see the prospects of the company in future.

2. joining eguardian was a breaking decision because i’ve never liked sales, i hate to be driven by numbers. yet i appreciate the working environment and top it up, they provide a steep learning curve for me. till the day things change, i don’t forsee myself leaving the company.

3. the hospitalization of my dad was indeed a turning point for me (and my dad i believe). in my honest opinion, my dad did not carry out the fatherly responsibility very well and i have never really paid him any respect. though i still find it hard to be nice to my father even now, things are not the same anymore. my father is within our consideration when we make a decision to travel, have dinner, etc etc. i started to contribute and all of a sudden feel very grown up. my dad is also going to church, which our family are very thankful for. we have umi, our domestic worker, to join the family as well. quoting my sister, “we have problems without a maid, and we have problems with a maid.” nevertheless, everyone is coping with god’s grace.

4. the break up. it taught me many valuable lessons with a very high price to pay and it brought to light, what i do not like will never be what i like. and today i would like to say, thank god for bring me through the difficult stage and thank god again i left the relationship. a guy like him will not be a guy to marry.

5. making the choice to focus on praise and worship, and not teaching. i love teaching, i like the attention of the children, especially when they listen and understand what you say. you know you made a difference in their lives. but my passion is in music, i want children (or youths) to be able to raise their voice, singing and moving to the groove; for them to indulge and enjoy christian songs. i’m giving myself one year to try and make a difference in that area, one year.

6. meeting bee² is something really unexpected, and i think the “un-expectation” was mutual. he is out of my norm, and has the ability to make me feel normal about my thoughts and emotions. most importantly, he brought me out of the gloom and pull me away from my strayed path. we are still seedling, yes yet this seedling is very much healthier than the previous.

in summary, i found focus and have mature much from all the experiences. with many thanks to those who stood by me, gave me a helping hand and supporting shoulder when i was sad and down. you don’t know how much i appreciate you guys, and do let me do the same if you were to go through the same thing. ♥

2012 is going to be a training year for me;

1. nothing is any more important than health; to exercise once a week, eating healthy along with my supplements

2. time & finance management; to save an amount each month, and ensure i’ll be home for dinner at least twice a week

3. find chances to upgrade myself; reading books, attending courses and picking up something new

4. blogging with photography; actively bringing my camera out, blogging at least once a week

5. bible study; feeding myself with daily bread every day, and remembering to pray before i eat

6. beautify myself; facials, massage, scrubs, moisturizing and cosmetics

each year i make the same resolutions, each year i have never consistently fulfill them. so this year will be a year i enforce discipline and diligence to make sure the resolutions made are fulfilled. of course, with the help of my dear friends

so, happy happy chinese new year for all. may you gain health and money in the year of dragon (woots, dragon!) and be a very very happy man.

with love much,

some people cannot get any worse.

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the letter i received on saturday, and the call i received today was the last straw. when can i truly rid these involvement? i truly regret my actions, and i hope all these are done and be a closed chapter in my life.

seriously, is this what you want in your life? why can’t you do something about it? how can you possibly live with such guilt, and troubles? you’re simply amazingly horrible.

do you know how difficult it was for me to not call you, and tell you “what the f are you doing to yourself? where’s your brain and where’s your conscience?” or even to call your close ones and tell them, “he needs help in all areas, physically and mentally”. but no matter how and what, it’s not my problems anymore and as much as i want to care, this is just as much i can do for you now. it’s the path you picked; so take care, and be well.